hmmm. wednesday tested the limits of "recovery" by hanging out with angel for the first time since october. what i learned: why am i friends with her? even her new roommate, someone i think of as a white trash lesbian fairy godmother of sorts, pointed out to me that this is a serious ill-match. well. am i feeling an uncomfortable class difference or is there a serious clash in personality? for obvious reasons i would prefer the latter explanation. i cannot believe how cavalier she is about all aspects of her life. it's not just that i'm conservative in sexual matters and she's...um....outgoing. it's everything. she seems to not plan, not care....and yet she has a job and doesn't live with her parents, so maybe i'm missing out on something here.

i heard back from K's ex-wife. she came to most of the same conclusions i came to. and now i do feel stupid.

that's all for today. i have to go cook squash.