i think that right now i'm in a chrysallis. a dormant stage. i really shouldn't be doing too much but getting ready for the fall. i don't have energy for much else, i think. i suppose this fall i'm just going to explode all over the place. i hope i am. i miss being more active in my life...

so, i kissed boy-from-work. i think that's probably the end of that, though. a one-time deal, fourth of july, just like last summer with andy. i don't have time for it anyway, and i miss frank so much but he's always gone on business. talked to him last week and now i don't even know where he is.

my garden is okay. i need to help paint the house but it's probably going to rain again. i just read less than zero, which probably isn't a book i need to be reading. i'm also working on the handmaid's tale. depressing. i need new music badly. i still have a $25 gift card for borders left over from christmas....but if i get another one from grandma for my birthday.....hmmm. music could be purchased. hey! friends, send me some recommendations. i have a list running. i still love all the stuff i was listening to in college and in the UK, but i need some sonic revitalization.