the boy from work called last night at ten to see if i was in town. er. and then he made some odd joke about me staying over there and he wouldn't touch me and it would be like brother and sister. anyway. i think i might avoid this situation more now. or maybe less, and then much more. tee hee.

frank has been out of town for two weeks now on business. i really miss talking to him. i feel like i need some support.

i have to remember that all i can do right now is make and save as much money as i can. it's all for chicago, and the only other thing i can do is try to enjoy the summer, and it will pass in no time. i really want to spend more time with friends who inspire me and build me up.

memorial day with clint and matty et al was so nice. cooking with matty and his sexy knives and just hanging out was so good for me. get this: i played frisbee. like, with running, and everything. and i was shirtless for part of it. kind of weird for me to remember how self-conscious i've always been. i was telling erin today that i am so much more confident than i was in high school, and i would say i'm even more confident than i was in college. i still have the "committee"--that team of inner voices that usually tell me everyone hates me. but now the committee has several members that tell the negative ones to shut the hell up. i can feel more, now, how glad i am that i have had the opportunities and challenges i've had.

enough. back to that last episode on "the office: season one."