long time, no post.

i have been through a couple jobs since i last posted.

tears, joy, everything.

now i am at an all-vegetarian place and that is so much better for me. the people are much nicer and i'm not under the microscope anymore.

my relationship is falling apart and it's not my fault (for once). M just doesn't give a shit about me, apparently.

there is another boy who loves me and wants to be with me but he is A) insane B) alcoholic C) non-English-speaking, and D) married. i try to avoid him, easier now that we don't work together, but he calls with different numbers so i never answer if i don't recognize the number. but he knows where i live and i am nervous.

otherwise, not to be depressing, but i basically have no friends except my TV and i don't even get cable anymore. Busch Light is my best friend...and the only thing that makes me happy is working. because i have nothing else interesting to do. in the third-largest city in america. pathetic.